One Other issue

I like company. I enjoy visits, and questions, and laughter. We need to laugh more, because its healthful. (endorphins) and like the chicken soup person tole me...its like jogging on the inside. I suppose I enjoy a more varied group than some of the folks I know. I used to post on a site called Psycho Daves. It was exhillerating to talk trash with some brilliant minds. I never realize until recently how much some of these people have contributed to science and philosophy until I googled their names. I was in some really unique company. And there were also some really degenerate folks there too. But I survived those blasts. Psycho Dave closed the place because he believed in freedom of speech and couldnt police the sewage that sought to destroy that venue. There were Terms of Service that were the regulations and some of these anti-freedom (ya suppose it was Osama?) individuals were posting photo-shopped porn that drug from the bottom of the East River, and dredged up stuff that cross the TOS so much it was painful.
Because Nietzsche was pronounced insane from birth his opinions and ideas were held as unreliable. Mencken an advocate of those beliefs and the only english speaking person to accruately outline them for the first time said quite accurately, "whether or not the man was insane, if he said two times two is four, be he insane or the pope, the result was the same."
It is MATH. I was always lousy at it. But the philosophy is mathematically arrived at. AND Nitzsche was musical. I suppose thats my draw. And sexual as well. One thing said of his music was that it had no life. I understand that completely. It is so hard to make the music come to life. You can squirrel away notes and chords, but to arrainge it into 'music' is truly magic. Nietzsche said that a wounded animal will withdraw to a cave to die. That he was living in a cave daily. He was a severe drug addict. At the end of his life injecting all sorts of strange chemical combinations into himself in order to (as he believed) improve his health. Of course this did no more than heighten his insanity, and create the depression that drove him farther and farther away from social conjugality and any objectivity. I believe Mencken was a little nuts too. But his drug was alcohol. Equally devistating, but legal and therefore acceptable.
My drug is existance. Im sure ive changed to materialist, from hippy existentialist.
I've too many tools in my garage, and lots of electronic musical crap. I like waking up. Although Schopenhauer was a pessimest I think my basic motivation is the will to live. Yet being realistic, I understand that I must die. I also understand that Im getting older, and that that fact is more of a certainty than ever before. I get preoccupied with it sometimes because I believe that that is what sent me to Christianity to begin with. Like and old preacher I know he said "were looking for a fire escape". The slave-morality outlined by Nietzsche, and championed by Mencken is a negative force in life. Humility is fine. Humility has its place, but we in Christianity, are running from the very God who says he's saving us. Why? Because we've read the Bible and know how pissed off he can get. AND we've heard for years, "fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom." Nobody wants to be so stupid that if they went down one more notch they'd have to be watered twice a week.
Bowe